Don't worry about me. . . I know very well where the screws in my psyche come loose and take opportunities as needed to go in and give them a turn.
It's when I begin to deal more assertively with the troubles of those around me (never mind at this point whether they want help), more often that not, I find them deeply rooted in mental illness - the unhealthy and engrained patterns of thought and behavior that promote whatever it is about them that's causing me to intervene in the first place. I realize how prevalent it is around me as I wake up from my own and I'm floored sometimes; mostly because I'm coming to the understanding that this is simply the human condition - our inability to deal with or surroundings in a forthright and honest manner.
Suddenly I see it in everything, I see it in much of what we collectively call 'progress' and wonder who's really sick . . .
The human condition. . . Passive Aggressive reactions in people I swear are manifested from our need to not upset the balance of other peoples human conditions. I mean what the hell is progress anyway? I take medication. . . is the fact that I've changed a lot of behavioral patterns progress? Because I've found that I don't take my meds for me so much as I do for the people around me. Intervention sucks. And don't forget. . . if the shoe fits. . . it's probably yours. :) That just sounded funny.
At some point you came to think that something in the attic might be amiss and you explored that possibility, you took responsibility for it, come what may. You accepted help and a solution that works for you. That's true progess!
Because medication wasn't right for me doesn't mean it's wrong. I just had to shatter some out-moded beliefs, modify some behaviors and open myself up to the help I never imagined I needed. But that's what I'm getting at here: I addressing issues I've taken with the rampant behavior in a community I belong to I've discovered a support group of mental illness that self-medicates, passes for normal (as long as the artificial realities they've built around them aren't threatened) and basically reject the notion that they would benefit from any sort of assistance from outside sources because, as they believe, that's the only thing wrong with them is everyone around them 'coming down on their shit, man'.
So yes, those shoes fit rather nicely, unfortunately they don't go with anything I own . . . I tried being nice, I tried being hard, but I refuse to continue with my own enabling tendencies. Unfortunately, this is going to have to become a legal issue before it can be addressed on any other level.
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Date: 2006-07-25 08:36 pm (UTC)Hang in there... I love you.
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Date: 2006-07-26 06:27 am (UTC)so stop trying to gain our attention by being obscure. it makes us all worry about you. dammit....
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Date: 2006-07-26 01:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-26 06:52 pm (UTC)It's when I begin to deal more assertively with the troubles of those around me (never mind at this point whether they want help), more often that not, I find them deeply rooted in mental illness - the unhealthy and engrained patterns of thought and behavior that promote whatever it is about them that's causing me to intervene in the first place. I realize how prevalent it is around me as I wake up from my own and I'm floored sometimes; mostly because I'm coming to the understanding that this is simply the human condition - our inability to deal with or surroundings in a forthright and honest manner.
Suddenly I see it in everything, I see it in much of what we collectively call 'progress' and wonder who's really sick . . .
Other People
Date: 2006-07-26 11:25 pm (UTC)Passive Aggressive reactions in people I swear are manifested from our need to not upset the balance of other peoples human conditions. I mean what the hell is progress anyway? I take medication. . . is the fact that I've changed a lot of behavioral patterns progress? Because I've found that I don't take my meds for me so much as I do for the people around me. Intervention sucks. And don't forget. . . if the shoe fits. . . it's probably yours. :) That just sounded funny.
Re: Other People
Date: 2006-07-27 01:05 pm (UTC)Because medication wasn't right for me doesn't mean it's wrong. I just had to shatter some out-moded beliefs, modify some behaviors and open myself up to the help I never imagined I needed. But that's what I'm getting at here: I addressing issues I've taken with the rampant behavior in a community I belong to I've discovered a support group of mental illness that self-medicates, passes for normal (as long as the artificial realities they've built around them aren't threatened) and basically reject the notion that they would benefit from any sort of assistance from outside sources because, as they believe, that's the only thing wrong with them is everyone around them 'coming down on their shit, man'.
So yes, those shoes fit rather nicely, unfortunately they don't go with anything I own . . . I tried being nice, I tried being hard, but I refuse to continue with my own enabling tendencies. Unfortunately, this is going to have to become a legal issue before it can be addressed on any other level.
Is that progress?
Re: Other People
Date: 2006-07-31 02:09 am (UTC)YEAH WELL WE SEE YOU TOO!
Date: 2006-07-26 11:20 pm (UTC)hahahahahha, oh shit.
Date: 2006-07-29 07:34 pm (UTC)