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Oct. 24th, 2005 11:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
doodlemaierThe Financial Aid office of GMU is open to walk-ins every Tuesday evening 'til 8pm in the South Chesapeake module (WTF? - the South chesapeake module) So I'll go straighten that mess out tomorrow. I can't describe the resistence that arrises when I'm faced with this; I don't know why it is so difficult. It's not only demotivating but resembles something much closer to panic. Is there a named phobia for the fear of institutes of higher learning? - I have that!
I'm a good student - that is, I make good grades, so it's not that. I've discussed this some with Dr. Rick, not a medical doc but a professor at one of the offending academies located somewhere outside of Pittsburgh. I tried to describe to him the way I feel about it, because he's very adept at cutting through the bullshit. But even he admits that my reasons for choosing GMU is a recipe for 'non-success', for 'dis-fulfillment' (because it offers a degree program that I'm tangentally interested in, and it's convenient). I'm having a difficult time reconciling my lack of enthusiasm for the rush to higher learning to 'lift us out of ignorance and poverty'. I guess the progamming for further inculcation into the 'One right way to live' is just too obvious when seen from the vantage of one who does not want to spend the rest of hsi life chasing dollars only to spend them further up the pyramid.
I have to remember what Daniel Quinn wrote about how the system of 'higher education' regulates the job market, by promoting some and holding others back (more often than not along an economic deliniations) - that is its purpose.
I'm a good student - that is, I make good grades, so it's not that. I've discussed this some with Dr. Rick, not a medical doc but a professor at one of the offending academies located somewhere outside of Pittsburgh. I tried to describe to him the way I feel about it, because he's very adept at cutting through the bullshit. But even he admits that my reasons for choosing GMU is a recipe for 'non-success', for 'dis-fulfillment' (because it offers a degree program that I'm tangentally interested in, and it's convenient). I'm having a difficult time reconciling my lack of enthusiasm for the rush to higher learning to 'lift us out of ignorance and poverty'. I guess the progamming for further inculcation into the 'One right way to live' is just too obvious when seen from the vantage of one who does not want to spend the rest of hsi life chasing dollars only to spend them further up the pyramid.
I have to remember what Daniel Quinn wrote about how the system of 'higher education' regulates the job market, by promoting some and holding others back (more often than not along an economic deliniations) - that is its purpose.
